breaking the cycle!!!!!! - high edition!

 God i am so fucking depressing. my entire life i have spent in and out and in and out of depressive episodes and I I am donnneeeeee with this fucking cycle. i hate my fucking brain, and I hate the fucking world, and I don't think anything is going to change that honestly? which is a sad fact. I'm high right now, typing this, so I might sound like a maniac....

thank god for Grammarly, you can properly understand my speech!!! typing actually.... yeahhhhhhh



anyways:

I'm done with my cycle. of never changing. i cant be that a stupid fucking fourth grader anymore man, like why cant I turn a signal thing in on time??????????? also I constantly sabatoge myself. CNSTANTLY. and now that I'm "grown up" and a big cool teenager, I have drugs now!! to help me sabatoge myself in new and FUN ways!!!!!!! omg I'm being so silly rrrrnnnn. im high as fuck.\


OH SHIT!!!! IF I TRYING TO WORK FOR THE CIA, THEY WILL FIND THIS IN THEIR BACKGROUND CHECK. I HOPE I DO, AND SOME GUY AT THE CIA IS READING THIS RN. wow

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all caps is crazy bro.\


OH YEAH, THIS IS SO HARD. I'm trying to SAAAYYY:


I'm going to walk up early tomorrow, and watch the sunrise. and I'm going to get matcha with lavender syrup and CBD. yesss drugs I love them, but this one they wont id you for and its not psychoactiiveee wwooowww. I'm so cool. 



god I'm too high rn, I'm tryna go to bed.








    goodnighttt!










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